Fifteen…..

Belle II

We snuggled in her messy room…. dark… cozy… with dimly lit stars, pink… green….blue….scattered across the walls and ceiling.  I knew she simply wanted to be close to me and I swore to never let her down… I made this oath while she slept.  Each night, I asked God for an array of things…. strength, patience… guidance…. for wisdom… for a long life… for anything I thought I would need so I could be everything she needed me to be….and that her feet were firmly on the right path…. His path…. siratal-mustaqeem…

She was 5.

When I look at her, I see so much more than a little girl.  I see hope. I see love.. I see a wonderful soul with an open mind and a generous heart. I see a loving daughter that places enormous importance on her family… a sister that has found her very important place among a house of brothers.  She’s tough, but charming. She’s beautiful….. but low-key.   I’ve watched her heart break over someone less fortunate…  share stories of compassion…  She talks about her future…her plans… college…. backpacking Europe… living in NYC… and spending holidays ensuring her little brothers get to sleep in tents with her.

She’s precious to me.  One day…… and that time is approaching.. I’ll have to call her at night to check in…. I’ll have to wait patiently for her to visit me…. yearn for holidays and birthdays…. But I can rest at night, knowing that she is all that I am… and more… so…much….more.

Fifteen…. although the time has slipped through my fingers… it has not escaped my memories…. my heart.

Happy Birthday, little soul… zieltje…   Annabelle Elizabeth…

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