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Thanksgiving ’11…

Posted in Where Angels Perch on December 4, 2011 by rodzink

…..backspace…backspace….backspace……. I had written this wordy depiction of folks on an open sea… leaving the known…. setting out for a rumored horizon…blah…blah…..But it simply felt strange…. It’s Thanksgiving…. a Thanksgiving celebration like I’ve never had…. so it warrants direct honesty….

Baker…I’m so glad you’re my son… We have our moments and I know you feel like I am hard on you (you have no idea what that means, really)…but I know what awaits you out there as you become a man… It’s a beautiful world… brimming with goodness…reward…happiness… But wrong steps on a treacherous path can set your days in a spiraling mess…  Make good choices not just for the day..the afternoon..but for lifelong well-being… Be kind…hug alot… when you make mistakes…simply shake your head and admit them… give forgiveness before it’s asked for…. Be still once in a while… and simply listen….Listen to your friends…your parents.. your grandparents…the news…. Listen for that voice in your heart…. It’s God…. listen. 

I have spent 13 years…. watching you….being proud of you… everso thankful for you… I’ll spend the rest of my days doing the same… You know I’d do anything for you…. You make me laugh.. you’ve kept me young and busy… Because of you, I still get to play football, baseball, climb, shoot rifles, air soft, wrestle… I’m grateful…so happy… You’re a wonderful young man and my buddy…my companion…sidekick…. I see beautiful things in you… your warmth….the way you do little things with you brother… You’re a teenager and I know those days of you not wanting me to be around all the time are coming…. but I’m always going to be here… that dad that sticks to you like a shadow when you want me…. I’m the dad on the porch watching for you at the bend in the road… I’m that dad full of great memories and pride as I think of you….

Belle…Thank you… thank you for making my days brighter… You have brought things to me that I’ve never expected… emotions that I didn’t have.  Often, you make me sit back and simply listen to you… you’re beautiful…smart….wise well beyond our days.  You’ve been my other “little boy” and tough as a nail…until I look at those blue eyes… then, I’m reminded of that soft little girl…regardless of the Carhartts….boots… You’re 11, but I can already see the young lady you’re becoming… thoughtful…caring…huge-hearted… Since you were a toddler, you’ve had me wrapped around your finger….  I would move mountains to get to you… I need you….just like you need me…  I’m proud you’re my daughter… my little girl… I’m thankful for your heart… your continuous laughter… your funky personality… I’m so thankful that you’re mine… The many, many tomorrows are coming…. life is full of twists and turns… you have many people around you…that love you dearly… remember that God made you… You’re special…perfect….

Aashir Rais…. The moment  you’re mommy told me we were going to have you, I loved you… You already know this, but her heart is like no place I’ve ever been…and you’re from that very heart….  Only recently, you’ve started developing your own personality… big smiles…. soft coos…loud screams… You have no idea what your very presence means to me… You’re my life… you’re my reminder of good things…. and that God always has his hand on us…as we stumble… as we fall….as we try to get up…. and we’re reminded in all our strength… and determination… that we are no more than God’s will… I know that you’ve always been… have been waiting… You’re a gift I didn’t expect… a blessing far greater than I had known to ask… a gentle nudge… a infant reminder of who I really am…what’s really important….

Faranah….  You were so unexpected… I remember looking at you that night at dinner (Mercantina)…. and I knew… I simply knew…. So, it’s sort of a Thanksgiving story for me…. a different voyage…and you wouldn’t be here..but oceans apart… In my mind, it speaks volumes… I know where I’m supposed to be…. there is no other place I could have been… this happiness is overwhelming…. the “knowing” is solid…your heart is sacred…. I’m so glad we met…again….  I’m so grateful that your heart…your embrace…your love…. is big enough to wrap around this family…. I’m on new ground….stepping off a water-logged and rotten ship…onto a promised land… I love our every day… I impatiently rush home….to be with you… every day.  I’ve come to anticipate the surprise of each day with you… that big, beautiful heart… the love of this family… I have found my place….somehow…. I’ve been directed home…

Faranah.... Aashir Rais....

Belle....basking in the Thanksgiving sun....

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