Archive for January, 2009

Holy Night…..

Posted in Where Angels Perch with tags , , , , on January 8, 2009 by rodzink

I still love to sneak into the kids’ rooms…. Sit in a rocking chair, sip coffee… and try to fade into their dreams.  Almost frightening, but peaceful..the silence and darkness…. a little light slips in through the blinds from the street.  I like to listen to them breathe… try to follow them……  I don’t know at what age it ends, but I know that little ones are visited by a host of angels during their sleep… What else could explain that level of peace…. a sleep so deep that we can carry them in over our shoulder, bag of  groceries in the other arm…..  tripping over the cat……  and they never wake…..  The face of a sleeping child can chase all the day’s stress from our minds, melt our hearts, wet our cheeks….  Our natural, and immediate, reaction can be nothing else , but to thank God for them.  I swear I can hear the rustle of wings…. 

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Christmas has come, yet I didn’t have to wait until the Eve to experience a Holy Night.  The fact that God put these two little ones in my life…. that I watch them grow….. see their smiles….It’s changed my life.  I think about our struggles…. mine… theirs…..  I wonder what it’s like to know the destiny of your own child, then watch them grow towards that end, but pour your love into them,  nonetheless. I think I’d choose the daily walk with them… the surprises… Like watching them climb out of their beds Christmas morning… sleepy-eyed….messy hair…… tearing into presents….. the excitement of discovery…..  The kids give me this…. excitement… discovery…. 

We read the Christmas story…..  Mary and Joseph packed up and fled….  They were protecting their child.  The young couple listened and knew when the time had come to act…. I’m paying attention… trying to be attentive… my ear to the tracks.  Will I hear… will I know….?  At what point do I step in, ignoring the “wants” of others and simply act on what I think to be best?  It’s tough being a parent……  I’ve made decisions in recent days and I’m certain to see the raised head of consequence…..  and let the children sleep.

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